The would I, will I, can I, how do I do it situation

   I got that feeling again. I cannot express what's inside. I cannot do it no matter how I try and want to. But if I don't do it, there's much chance, there would be far less oppurtinity to do it again. I need that something so much it aches to remember the previous. I am not rambling without a clue or dancing in my own world...because I know it has to be done...somehow....